My dreams lately have been amazing. Just little thumbnail dreams, really — a still image more or less, no story. To wit:
Such brilliantly colored dreams — the colors were a big part of them. This morning I started wondering why I was having all this color in my dreams, and I realized these two things:
I can’t remember what came first, unfortunately — the new colorful tattoo, or all these color dreams. Whichever came first, the point is that my life is just so full of color right now it’s startling. And such vivid bright colors, too, full of light and life. I like it. I’m not really feeling so vibrant right now, or full of life, but maybe I am, even if I’m not feeling that. There is so much to look forward to: two happy hours this week, a friend’s birthday in August, friends coming for Labor Day, a couple of concerts, and at the end of September I’m going back to Marfa for a few days, to stay at El Cosmico, the same place I stayed at the end of March. This time I’ve reserved a trailer called the “Royal Mansion,” which is also colorful!
It’s good to have things to look forward to, especially when you’re feeling kind of low, as I am. This evening I’m meeting with a health coach — more on that tomorrow. I simultaneously have so many hopes pinned on the meeting, and no hope at all. My optimism makes me hope that this time I’ll get it all figured out, good and healthy eating, and exercise, but my 54 years of experience remind me that I do well in short spurts, then I go right back to my bad old habits. Anyway. More on that tomorrow. Happy Monday, y’all.
p.s. Here are some links I’ve been saving for when I have time to read them — shared, as always, in case any interest you!
- Here’s a review in the LARB about an interesting book, The Demon of Writing by Ben Kafka. It’s about the ubiquity of paperwork and “the psychic life of paperwork,” how it has become a background fixture in our stories and our internal lives. I really want to read that review…
- Martin Scorsese wrote a piece in the NYRB about the language of cinema. If anyone knows about that, it’s Scorsese.
- Here’s a review of a very interesting book about “the need of hyperarticulate people to get raving drunk”. Curious about that one.
- A very cool exploration of the value of dumb vs smart, with dumb-smart and smart-smart and dumb-dumb and smart-dumb all part of the figuring out. REALLY want to read this one.
- Truly fascinating article about suicide — a topic that fascinates me. Thanks, Harper’s.
- The head of Farrar, Straus & Giroux reflects on the company’s golden age and its seemingly less-than-romantic present.
- It’s always so disappointing when famous writers or poets are jerks. Oh, that Rilke.